PLEASE NOTE: If this entry interests you, consider checking out the blog by reading the first post FIRST. The info is cumulative and will make more sense if you read them in the order they were written.
In this blog I am trying to be fairly well organized, covering my topic step by step... so that the interested reader can actually gain something of value. So far I've covered frequency, tuning and resonance, plus other topics as they came along. These initial blogs are just the beginning, meaning, what I've said is introductory and I'll go into more depth as the blog unfolds. You're always welcome to ask me questions, as well, if some point raised in a blog is a hot one for you.
In keeping with discussing the elements of the title (which has changed, you might notice, in the quest of presenting the blog so folks can easily ascertain what it's about), today I'll ruminate about self-healing.
Being in constant pain for so long, I was always looking for someone to heal me. In the course of my seeking I ended up getting a terrific education about mind, body and energy healing methods... and almost no pain relief whatsoever. Literally, I'd have a session and within seconds or minutes be back in pain. Sure learned a lot, though.
When 9/11 happened, for me it was preceded by the sudden death of my second husband, Tom. He fell off a cliff while hiking in Colorado on July 5. By the time 9/11 hit I was already quite undone by the close presence of death. And, like all good alcoholics (I was a stress-o-holic, but it's the same thing just with a different substance) I finally hit bottom and was forced to look at my life and ask the question, "is this all there is--I am gonna keep up this stupid behavior and die addicted?" Because the presence of death will do that to ya... make you reconsider wasting your life on being caught in an endless cycle of addiction.
I call my relationship with this stress-related pain an addiction because that became my understanding, when I asked God for help, a few days after 9/11 put me in this very reflective mood. I was shown, in no uncertain terms, how continuing the behavior that was keeping my stress-related pain going was, absolutely, an addiction, an addiction to being stressed out, to being in pain.
This shocked me; no one had ever presented this possibility to me, and it rang true. So, I set out to discover how I could overcome my addiction to stress. It's taken until now, and it's still going on. But I am almost 95% free of pain, and that's a huge piece of progress considering that for 35 years I was 0% free of pain, no matter what I did. It is this reality that made me aware of how I HAD TO TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR HEALING MYSELF.
Healing myself is not the same thing as having to heal all by myself. Indeed, since I've become my own healer I have been blessed with many fine folks who have assisted me in this process. Couldn't have done it without them. Yet it's totally different than I when I was running from person to person hoping and wishing they would, finally, be able to heal me. Desperately wanting others to take away the pain simply never, ever worked.
Being a self-healer is taking full responsibility for healing yourself, and you don't have to do it alone (in fact, you can't). Besides opening up to other practitioners, books, info etc. I also had to learn how to open up to God (the cosmos, consciousness, Jesus, etc.) For, in the end, we cannot transform ourselves. We can set up the conditions by engaging energy, we can cultivate and learn by flowing the energy, and then we must surrender to the energy (i.e. allow ourselves to be healed by the energy, by God).
Self-healing is a remarkable journey. I had no idea it would be this much fun. And, for me, the bottom line is that, only through self-healing can I actually, and for real, let go of the pain and be healed. Now, when I work with a practitioner, it helps tremendously. Now, when I am stuck, I ask for help from the cosmos and always receive it.
From my self-healer to yours,
Laurel
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